“To Love You Was My Crucible”

Orchestral Intro – 0:00-0:30]
Strings tremble like a heart about to break, church organ swells, distant thunder of toms.
[Verse 1 – 0:30-1:10]
I carved your name in cathedral stone
With nails that bled and a voice alone
Every letter a wound, every echo a chain
I wore your silence like freezing rain
The moon was my witness, the night was my judge
Still I knelt at the altar of your bitter touch
A fool in white lace, a martyr in red
Crowning you king inside my head
[Pre-Chorus – 1:10-1:30]
(Choir enters, Latin whispers)
“Peccatum amoris… dolor aeternus…”
[Chorus – 1:30-2:10]
To love you was heartache dressed in gold
A beautiful madness I couldn’t let go
To love you was folly, my sweetest mistake
Burning in solitude till my soul would break
I drank every poison from your lying lips
And called it salvation as my heaven eclipsed
To love you was dying, slow and alone
Yet I’d do it again on this throne of thorns I own
[Verse 2 – 2:10-2:50]
Your shadow still dances on walls of my room
A ghost made of promises, perfume, and doom
I scream to the void and the void screams back
With your voice saying “darling, I’m never coming back”
My ribs are a cage for a raven that cries
Black feathers of memory blocking the skies
I painted my sorrow in crimson and chrome
A symphony bleeding for a king without a home
[Pre-Chorus 2 – 2:50-3:10]
(Guitars climb, soprano climbs higher)
I offered my heart on a silver blade
You smiled and watched as the colors all fade
[Chorus – 3:10-3:50]
To love you was heartache dressed in gold
A cathedral of longing where the angels sold
Their wings for your kiss, their light for your lies
To love you was falling through starless skies
I crowned you with fire, I bathed you in tears
And danced in the inferno for years and years
To love you was dying, slow and alone
But God, how I loved you on this throne of thorns I own
[Bridge – Opera explosion – 3:50-4:30]
(Soprano soars into stratospheric range, full choir, double-kick drums at 180 bpm)
Ah-ah-ah-ah!
Crucify me again!
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Let the requiem begin!
I am the pyre, I am the flame
I am the scream that howls your name
Through centuries of night I’ll crawl
Just to fall at your feet and lose it all!
[Guitar solo + violin duel with violin – 4:30-4:50]
[Final Chorus – Key up a whole step, everything louder – 4:50-5:20]
To love you was heartache forged into art
A masterpiece bleeding straight from my heart
To love you was stupid, divine, and insane
And I’d bleed every drop just to feel it again
In the silence you left, I still sing alone
On my throne made of thorns, in my kingdom of stone
To love you was death…
But I’m still not done
I’ll love you in ashes till the stars come undone
[Outro – 5:20-5:40]
(Piano + single soprano voice, fading)
Mencintaimu adalah sakit hati…
Dan aku masih bodoh untukmu…
Selamanya…
(Orchestra collapses into silence, heartbeat kick drum stops.)
End.

symphonic metal, female, opera, rock, hard rock