This Was Different

your minds in unrest cravin the flesh, I’m not a contestant and you’ll say its for the best cause those things never last but it shows what you crave and Where is your attraction What you tell me you dont have know thats not you bein mean or ever wantin to hurt me, just can’t help thinkin why not me what Im missin u dont see. Enter the dark place im my own worst enemy younger dangerous, thinkin leadin to a river of bleedin wounds and scars that keep me in a jar and missin everythin makin my own life extra hard cause I lept too far tried to reach a higher bar im not meant to hold now just standin in the cold shakin my head knowin I never learned thinkin it will happen again, but fuck its hard to look in the mirror after I thought this one was clear but wrong again Thought this one was different

in a Spin cycle psycho spiral, survival rivaled by denial Bad habits back sanity cracked mind overload and I can’t control or hold it explodes my only chance of survival stitched into denial and I Give it up now to selfdestruction without discussion no more construction built to fall crash the system stop it all bendin sections cut the feelin all connection past decisions fractured visions contradictions all thats left feedin addictions in the friction feedin memory this was different. Whats significant my heart is persistently consistently bold reachin for angels I was never meant to hold wrangle or entangle Need to find a different angle my hearts tired of gettin strangled if she’s listenin nothins your fault nothin’s on you. You were upfront nice carin and always told the truth. funny thing it was endearin lookin at the rest of you. lost control and feelin blindly steerin towards the vision without memory of other instance or anythin all so distant this was different. Your eyes a maze I wanted to be forever lost in your smile alone invaluable justified Any cost and your beauty just unmatched your body struck a match that didnt light a fire ignited a rocket soaring, faster higher even at night made things brighter my darkness went away and took with it all the pain, but I’m so stupid now sittin here in the rain as it all falls down on me again drop by drop cause I reached over my station for this glorious revelation inside and out magnificent I was right she was different. in a Spin cycle psycho spiral, survival rivaled by denial Bad habits back sanity, cracked mind overload and I can’t control or hold it explodes my only chance of survival stitched into denial and I Give it up now to selfdestruction without discussion no more construction built to fall crashed the the system stop it all bendin sections cut the feelin all connection past decisions fractured visions contradictions all that’s left, feedin addictions in the friction, feedin the memory this was different. Now vigilant knowin what is eminent when it comes to hurt the burns indifferent attacks with militant precision never missin perfectly hittin where it aims and I’m right in the way. TGB life