The things I let die

TRACK 7 — THE THINGS I LET DIE

I’ve been walkin’ through the wreckage of the things I let die,

All the pieces of myself that I swore I’d revive.

Every memory on the floor feels like a crime scene now,

Every promise that I broke feels like I’m breakin’ my vows.

I’ve been tryna understand why I cling to the hurt,

Why I treat my own heart like it’s somethin’ I can’t deserve.

Why I keep apologizin’ for the things I can’t change,

Why I keep expectin’ comfort from the places that cause pain.

I don’t know why I keep runnin’ from the truth I need,

Why I’m scared to let go of the things that make me bleed.

Why I’m scared to trust peace when it’s right in my hands,

Why I sabotage love like I’m scared to make plans.

I don’t know why I keep fallin’ back into the dark,

Why I bury every chance like I’m scared to restart.

These are the things I let die,

The parts of me I never learned to revive.

I keep sayin’ I’ll be better but I still lie,

I keep breakin’ myself just to feel alive.

These are the things I let die,

The pieces of me I never learned to fight.

I keep runnin’ from the truth I deny,

I need to change… but I don’t know why.

I’ve been talkin’ to the shadows that I used to ignore,

Now they’re louder than the person I was tryin’ to be before.

Every whisper in my head feels like a warning sign,

Every step I try to take feels like I’m fallin’ behind.

I’ve been tryna find the courage just to face myself,

But the mirror keeps remindin’ me of everything I felt.

All the guilt I never dealt with, all the pain I suppressed,

All the nights I stayed awake with the weight on my chest.

I don’t know why I keep holdin’ on to all this shame,

Why I treat my own reflection like it’s someone else to blame.

Why I’m scared of bein’ honest when I’m breakin’ inside,

Why I’d rather fall apart than admit that I cried.

I don’t know why I keep choosin’ all the things that drain me,

Why I’m scared of bein’ loved when I want it so badly.

These are the things I let die,

The parts of me I never learned to revive.

I keep sayin’ I’ll be better but I still lie,

I keep breakin’ myself just to feel alive.

These are the things I let die,

The pieces of me I never learned to fight.

I keep runnin’ from the truth I deny,

I need to change… but I don’t know why.

Maybe I’m the reason that I’m stuck this way,

Maybe I’m the one who keeps me locked in place.

Maybe I’m afraid of who I’ll be without the pain,

Maybe I don’t know how to live if I ever change.

Maybe I’m the problem that I can’t outrun,

Maybe I’m the darkness that I blame on everyone.

Maybe I’m the reason that I’m still not free,

Maybe the thing I’m scared to face… is me.

I’ve been standin’ in the doorway of the life I want,

But the past keeps draggin’ me back like a ghost that haunts.

I’ve been tryna find a reason just to take one step,

But the fear inside m