Crimes of controlling mind

Maybe I'm my own worst critic & maybe I'm never satisfied. Maybe I'm too dumb to ever read between the lines. They say I'm just too gullible,but also really kind, They say that I'm pretty too, just look at those bright blue eyes, but I'll never stop comparing myself to that girl I left behind, the girl that I was made to lose, I'd have rather had a black eye, at least that way I wouldn't have to sit their and question my own mind.

Sick of questioning my own worth,I sometimes often wonder what would it have been like if I had walked a different path, if life worked out how that freckled face kid had always dreamed of, if I had believed in myself and not the narrative you made maybe I would've been been 'okay'.

They say just to leave it all behind, to just focus on the road in sight, but the memories of your unkindness linger inside, forever controlling my mind.

My kindness taken for weakness, making me isolated and confined, stripped me of my confidence and took away all my shine, But my strength over took my weakness, now it's time for you to watch Me shine. Taking back all I lost, from your controlling crimes, you thought you won, but in fact you lost, Now watch me have my time.