Birthday Blues

Counting down the days, they used to feel so bright,

Now they whisper shadows, as I’m lost in the night.

Throwback to the laughter, cake, and sweet surprise,

But now I brace for heartaches that linger in disguise.

I used to feel the magic, every twinkle in my eyes,

Held my breath for candles, under sparkling skies.

A wish upon a moment, and dreams that felt so true,

But they faded like the sun at the end of the blue.

Once it was a treasure, now it feels like a chain,

Twenty years of memories, some joy and aching pain.

Time took away the innocence, a soft and gentle glow,

Now I’m standing at the door, afraid of what I know.

Birthday blues, they creep in slow,

Once it was a dance, now it feels like a no-show.

Counting all the changes, each year feels so wrong,

Once I sang a sweet tune, now it’s just a sad song.

But there’s a flicker in the distance, a hope that’s yet to grow,

A chance to find the laughter beneath the clouds that glow.

Maybe twenty’s a beginning, a chance to break away,

To find a brand new rhythm, in a fresh and brighter way.

I’ll light those candles gently, and whisper to the air,

Each flicker holds a moment, of joy and silent prayer.

Though the years are heavy, and the weight feels like a stone,

There’s beauty in the journey, and I won't face it alone.

There’s laughter in the heartache, a balance to the pain,

Maybe twenty years of living doesn’t mean I’m just the same.

Let the shadows blend with daylight, let the tears come with the cheer,

For every birthday broken, there’s a brand new way to steer.

Birthday blues, they creep in slow,

But I’ll find my dance, let this heart start to glow.

Counting all the blessings, within the storm’s embrace,

I’ll take each step forward, and find my special space.

So here’s to strange beginnings, and finding joy anew,

I’ll face this year with courage, and cherish all that’s true.

Though the birthday blues may haunt me, I’ll rise above the fray,

The years may weigh like whispers, but I’ll shine in my own way.