Anger making me dangerous
almost if not fully deranged
Costing all the progress
that I made to date my mind is a kleptomaniac stealing away my happiness like night steals away the day clouds in my mind blocks out my sunshine
has me questioning my fate
thinking that it's too late
like a train wreck derailed from it's tracks I can't get back on track can't keep track to many highs to many lows steam whistle blows
screaming out for help underneath my breath I'm out of breath I can't breathe encrypted messages in the words I sing
wrongfully believing that noone
can relate to this mental state my
Mind alive with wildfire
passions and desires yet
dying right befor eyes
While sorrow with in rage
escalates with in
Fighting day and night
torn between the cacophony
of collateral damage
and the silence
that comes with completely giving in
Seeming to never be able to get shit right
any time i try
Wondering who would
miss me if I closed my eyes and faded away tonight
Seeing my light fade
as the chaos
cascades around me
The sounds in my inner ears
are all I'm able to hear although
there's no water surrounding me
my face feels encased in it drowning
on dry ground reaching out for a flotation device what's the price to be paid to be saved I can't save me is it karma punching me in the teeth or the reaper of death knocking on my door looking for another pay day
Screaming out in silence
with in my own mind
it's too loud,
Closing my eyes
viewing madness within sadness
masked by happiness
gripped by regrets
Trying to find and focus on
those silver linings that have been provided by the divine,
Scared yet unware that each time i survive
curves of twists and bends on the roads of life I'll always finish just fine in the end,How do I know Because I have died and rose again a thousand times severing times
What crashes and burns turns to ashes i
Will always rise brighter higher and wiser every time,when I drift away into my internal sleep play my songs I sing on repeat keep them on repeat decipher the encrypted messages I leave behind in the songs I sing and the answers you seek to find of what's hanging on the walls of my mind what lies on the floors of my membrain you will find in the chapters of my musical story book I leave behind
Poet419
