Alone again

I have to close my eyes and I feel the darkness coming in once again trying to consume all my light, it's just as easy as day turning into night, but I can't let this tear me down or make me fall again, I'll have to search inside myself to make myself whole again, but the fear and the doubt comes creeping in like a thief in the night, in order to make myself strong I must choose to fight, so I say to myself get up stop your f****** whining stop all this f****** crying and get up and fight no one's going to help you you did this to yourself there's only one way that you can make this right so I stand up and I fight I swing with all my mind if I fall then it's my fault but I'm using my dimming light, so I have to close my eyes just to even look at you all the things you're saying to me I can't believe or true I'm not the one that gave up not the one that lost my love, I'm not the one that walks away when push comes to shove no I will try to hold on to what we have and hold on to what we love, so now I find myself all alone again I have to sit here and play pretend that's if nothing's wrong and everything is fine little do you know I almost lost my mind my heart is shattered just like broken glass but I can't keep thinking about it or trying to live in my past I have to keep pushing forward and make this life my own happiness is all I want, even if I'm all alone so I say