[In]
(Adlib:) Yesterday at the meeting...
(Adlib:) They said the only way is up.
(Adlib:) But I’m still falling.
[V1]
I heard yesterday at Celebrate Recovery
That once you hit the bottom, there’s a discovery.
They say there’s only "going up" from the floor
So why do I feel like I’m spiraling more?
I don't think you even like me, let’s be real
Even though we just sealed the deal.
You keep calling me "friend" with that casual tone
But friends don't leave each other feeling this alone.
[Ch]
Am I at the bottom? Is this the end?
Trying to be more, but I’m just a "friend."
When will my self-worth be enough for me?
When will I see what the Father sees?
I keep falling down, eyes on the ground
Wondering if I will ever be found.
Am I at the bottom? Or am I just trash?
Waiting for the next inevitable crash.
[V2]
I was planning on staying, I thought we were close
But you treated my presence like a ghost.
You should have told me you had plans to go
Instead of putting on this little show.
I went to the kitchen to grab your juice
And I asked God, "What is the use?"
"Should I just leave? Should I walk away?"
'Cause you didn't even ask me to stay.
(Adlib:) You preoccupied...
(Adlib:) Leaving me aside...
[Ch]
Am I at the bottom? Is this the end?
Trying to be more, but I’m just a "friend."
When will my self-worth be enough for me?
When will I see what the Father sees?
I keep falling down, eyes on the ground
Wondering if I will ever be found.
Am I at the bottom? Or am I just trash?
Waiting for the next inevitable crash.
[Br]
I heard in a song once, a melody true:
"It's okay to cry, it's okay to fall apart
You don't have to try to be strong when you aren't."
It said "Don't ever fight your tears
There is freedom in every drop that appears."
They say the only way to heal is to break
But how much more breaking can one heart take?
[V3]
(Building Intensity)
They say we have to fall apart to heal
But this brokenness is the only thing that’s real!
My heart has been shattered a thousand times before
I don't even know what I’m fighting for!
Was I ever whole? Was I ever complete?
Or just a broken vessel sitting at your feet?
(Adlib:) I’m spiraling!
(Adlib:) God, do You see me?!
[Out]
(Adlib:) Never whole to start.
(Adlib:) Just pieces of a heart.
Maybe I’m at the bottom.
Maybe that’s where You start.
(Whisper:) It’s okay to fall apart.
[Fade out with a single piano note]
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