crookedcrowns

This crown weighs heavy on my head

You were my queen, but you found another king's bed.

I promised that I healed but lied to not reveal

The true pain in my head that was locked without a seal.

I toss and turn more than my restless nights

And I fell in love with you despite all my red lights

They're faded and obscured now, living in their own world

But alive and bright in my head, I had your world,

upside down

We lived and breathed each others air

Till we suffocated in each other's arms, scared

Scared we might live to do regretful things

Scared we might regret to do things to live

Scared that we're gonna die someday

Scared that it could be today

I live in the fear of what we once had

It was everything I wanted, but it turned out to be bad.

Why is what I need the worst thing to ever exist.

Your brain was always locked tight, I never knew what I missed

After it all, everything feels far and blurry

And your arms dont feel as warm and as assuring

My body feels cold, dark and heavy

Heavier than my crown,

but I'm not ready.