This crown weighs heavy on my head
You were my queen, but you found another king's bed.
I promised that I healed but lied to not reveal
The true pain in my head that was locked without a seal.
I toss and turn more than my restless nights
And I fell in love with you despite all my red lights
They're faded and obscured now, living in their own world
But alive and bright in my head, I had your world,
upside down
We lived and breathed each others air
Till we suffocated in each other's arms, scared
Scared we might live to do regretful things
Scared we might regret to do things to live
Scared that we're gonna die someday
Scared that it could be today
I live in the fear of what we once had
It was everything I wanted, but it turned out to be bad.
Why is what I need the worst thing to ever exist.
Your brain was always locked tight, I never knew what I missed
After it all, everything feels far and blurry
And your arms dont feel as warm and as assuring
My body feels cold, dark and heavy
Heavier than my crown,
but I'm not ready.