How to fail at loving someone

Wasn’t sure if I could do it again. But she suggested meeting at a park so the kids could play. I got there first so nervous but I played it off ok. The moment I saw her beautiful red hair I was speechless . Deep down I knew she was made for me but wouldn’t admit it verbally. The moment her head hit my shoulder I knew we were made to be together forever. Not long after we had she found the note I hid on a Pepsi. We had it hard but we found moments to make ours. A full house of kids with two broken people trying to fix each other. After trying for 5 years it all came crashing down. I thought we would work through it like we always had done but I couldn’t keep her she was already gone. She never mine to keep with all the trust issues and doubt I could never could get her that ring. She like I never mattered was with someone just days after. Broke me like I’ve never been broke took me for a joke.