Inside of me

My mind’s all over the place again,

Racing thoughts that never end,

Smiling out loud but inside I bend,

I’m losing myself, trying to pretend.

Everybody says, “You’re doing fine,”

But they don’t see the war in my mind,

It’s like a storm that hides behind,

This calm I wear like a thin disguise.

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Something in me whispers low,

“Ssshhh… don’t let nobody know,”

But my heart’s breaking under the show,

I can’t keep holding it alone.

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Ahhh, why am I like this?

Fighting the shadows I can’t dismiss,

Lord, come to my heart, I’m on my knees,

Kick whatever’s inside that’s haunting me.

Take the pain, take the fear I hide,

Tear down the walls I built inside,

I’m tired of lying that I’m fine,

When I’m lost in my own mind.

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I laugh, I joke, I play my part,

But silence echoes in my heart,

The mirror shows a worn-out face,

Still searching for a sacred place.

Every “I’m okay” feels like a lie,

Tears stay locked when I wanna cry,

There’s a voice that says, “Just hold it in,”

But it’s drowning me deep within.

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Something in me whispers low,

“Ssshhh… don’t let nobody know,”

But Lord, I can’t take this alone,

I need Your love to guide me home.

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Ahhh, why am I like this?

Fighting the shadows I can’t dismiss,

Lord, come to my heart, I’m on my knees,

Kick whatever’s inside that’s haunting me.

Take the pain, take the fear I hide,

Tear down the walls I built inside,

I’m tired of lying that I’m fine,

When I’m lost in my own mind.

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Pull me out of this silent war,

Heal the wounds I can’t ignore,

Let Your light flood every door,

I’m ready, Lord — I can’t take more.

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Ahhh, why am I like this?

Fighting the shadows I can’t dismiss,

Lord, come to my heart, I’m on my knees,

Kick whatever’s inside that’s haunting me.

Take the pain, take the fear I hide,

Let Your love be my peace tonight,

No more pretending I’m just fine —

With You, I’ll heal inside my mind.

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Yeah, my mind’s been all over the place,

But I feel Your mercy, I feel Your grace,

Whatever’s been hiding deep inside,

You’re breaking its chains tonight.