Dead dream

I met the woman of my dreams one day

Fell in love so hard, it swept me away

It was everything to me, pure and true

Thought I’d found forever, me and you

But the cracks started showing, she faded from sight

Her online persona burning too bright

Single as could be, feeding fantasies wild

Sowing seeds for the fanboys, like an innocent child

The DMs didn’t lie, the exes replied

Getting what they needed, no truth to hide

Just a single woman living life free

Travelling the world, chasing her dreams

I’m autistic and I love with all my heart

Every word, every silence tears me apart

I feel it ten times deeper than most ever know

The signals, the spaces, the ebb and the flow

I masked through the chaos just to stay near

But unspoken rules left me drowning in fear

Gave you my truth, raw and unfiltered

Love on the spectrum feels like it’s hindered

But the cracks started showing, she faded from sight

Her online persona burning too bright

Single as could be, feeding fantasies wild

Sowing seeds for the fanboys, like an innocent child

In the end I knew it, deep down in my soul

I’m the needy, controlling one losing control

Boundaries and respect somehow made me wrong

In the chaos they built on the timeline at speed of a song

No emotional safety, no space to be real

Availability gone, what’s left to feel?

I’m dead inside now, nearly faded away

What the fuck do we even need at the end of the day?

I’m autistic and loving, I know what’s wrong

In the end I’m not the villain in this song

I see through the lies, I feel every part

But I’m not the one who broke this heart