One Lonely Night

Dark outside but my thoughts still loud

Silence in the crib, feel it pressin’ down

One lonely night, I’m facin’ myself

All this money and fame, still losin’ my health

I done touched a mil’, still feel like I’m broke

Not in my pockets, more like my soul

Fame got me boxed, I’m playin’ a role

Smilin’ in public, inside I’m cold

I push love away like it’s poison to sip

Every time I trust, it just end in some shit

Women come close, then they dip when it’s real

Guess they love the image but not how I feel

Niggas turn strangers when money involved

Loyalty rare, that shit hard to find

Late nights starin’, just questionin’ God

Like why all this pain come packaged with shine?

Voices in my head say I’m losin’ control

Tellin’ me success came with a hole

Fill it with smoke, liquor, and hoes

But shit don’t work, it just bury me more

Who really here when the lights go dim?

Who gon’ stay when it’s all cave in?

Look in the mirror, I question that man

Is he really him or just playin’ pretend?

One lonely night, trapped in my mind

Searchin’ for peace I can’t fuckin’ find

Lovin’ and hurtin’ at the same damn time

Fightin’ my demons, just tryna survive

One lonely night, yeah I sit on this throne

Whole world watchin’, still feel alone

Said I’d be strong, never fold under pressure

But this shit heavy, I’m losin’ my center

I been battlin’ demons I don’t let show

Carry that weight everywhere that I go

They see the chains but don’t see the scars

Don’t know the nights I was prayin’ in the dark

I let that trauma just sit in my chest

Turned into anger, then turned into stress

I tried to heal but I numbed it instead

Now it come back every time that I rest

Pour me a drink just to quiet the noise

Roll me a doobie, I’m chasin’ some peace

Temporary highs but the pain still deep

Shit come right back when the high decrease

I gave my heart to people that lied

Kept it too real, got cut by the ties

Now I move cautious, I question intentions

Every “I love you” sound like a disguise

And maybe it’s me, maybe I built these walls

Afraid if I open, I might just fall

So I play strong, never show when I’m weak

But that shit heavy, it’s killin’ me slow

Success feel hollow when you got no one

Celebratin’ wins but can’t call no one

Phone full of numbers I never can trust

What’s the point of it all if it’s only me, huh?

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Who really ridin’? Who solid for me?

Past all the clout and the money I see

Look in my eyes, it’s deeper than rap

I’m fightin’ myself just to stay on track

One lonely night, trapped in my mind

Searchin’ for peace I can’t fuckin’ find

Lovin’ and hurtin’ at the same damn time

Fightin’ my demons, just tryna survive

One lonely night, yeah I sit on this throne

Whole world watchin’, still feel alone

Said I’d be strong, never fold under pressure

But this shit heavy, I’m losin’ my center

Shadows creep, I can’t outrun the pain

Every night feel the same damn strain

Screamin’ inside but it don’t translate