You made me.

Ashes fall like winter snow,

Mercy fades and embers glow,

What was blessed is cursed tonight,

Love has turned its face from light.

I was never born a monster,

I was never raised this way,

I believed that faith and patience

Could keep the darkness at bay.

Then you touched the parts I buried,

Gave old scars another name,

Now every memory I worship

Comes back soaked in grief and flame.

I built a throne from broken pieces,

Built a future in my mind,

Every road I walked was leading

To a life where you were mine.

Now I watch another shadow

Standing where I dreamed I’d stand,

And I feel something awakening

I no longer understand.

I begged Heaven for an answer,

All I got was empty skies,

Now the silence feels like judgment

And the dark feels justified.

You were supposed to stay,

You were supposed to be mine,

Now I’m wandering through the ruins

Of a future left behind.

Every promise, every prayer,

Every dream has turned to smoke,

And the man I used to be

Died the night my heart was broke.

Tell me why you lit the fire

If you planned to walk away,

Why you taught my soul to hope

Just to leave it where it lay.

I was healing when you found me,

Learning how to stand again,

Now the wounds I thought were closing

Have been torn apart by then.

I see your face in every doorway,

Hear your voice in every crowd,

And the ghosts of what we could’ve been

Are speaking far too loud.

You became my favorite chapter,

Then you ripped out every page,

Now all that’s left inside me

Is sorrow dressed as rage.

I gave you every good thing

That I knew how to give,

Now I’m left with all this love

And nowhere for it to live.

You were supposed to stay,

You were supposed to be mine,

Now I’m drowning in reflections

Of the life I can’t rewind.

Every promise, every prayer,

Every dream has turned to smoke,

And the man I used to be

Died the night my heart was broke.

I don’t hate you for leaving,

I hate that I still care.

I hate that every sunrise

Finds your memory waiting there.

I hate the way I miss you,

I hate the way I grieve,

I hate that part of me still hopes

You’ll return and never leave.

But hope becomes a poison

When it’s left to slowly grow,

And every unanswered question

Turns another heart to stone.

You were supposed to stay,

At least that’s what the darkness says,

While it builds itself a kingdom

From the ruins that you left.

The hero died waiting,

The villain learned to survive,

And now the shadows know the name

Of the man who once believed in light.

Let the angels turn away,

Let the heavens close their eyes,

I was not destroyed in hatred,

I was broken by goodbye.

And if they ask what happened,

Tell them simply, tell them true:

A good man lost himself

The moment that he lost you.