Painful thoughts, Like that makes no sense to me what so ever if u loved and cared about someone u wouldn’t let them walk away so easily if u loved and cared about someone you’d find reasons for them to stay if u loved and cared about someone that person wouldn’t have to beg for ur love and attention when she needs it if u loved someone u would still check in on her even if he told u to fuck off if u loved someone u would help fight the battle with her to save the relationship instead of letting her fight it alone if u loved someone u wouldn’t treat her like shit and make her feel like a whore for having needs if u loved someone u would of said sorry without her asking for one if u loved her…u would of bee
n there when it all started to get bad and dark for her instead u left…u left her with her thoughts getting broken up with before Christmas when she spent over $300 on ur gifts, all she could think about was how she wasn’t good enough for u when u left how everyone around her suddenly hates her and becomes distance for a while she was left to deal with her family problems by herself she has to vent and rant to herself to feel somewhat better about things she tried reaching out to talk but u pushed her away but guess who still tried to talk to u. She did. All she wanted was to know somekne was in her corner cheering her on in that crazy dark scary battle but she had to do it alone…until she broke and left for 2 months and it was like her existence never matter to anyone. One person asked how she was doing while she was gone no one cared she left they all lived there lives as if nothing went wrong when it all came crashing down on her like rocks…she got help and now she’s setting boundaries with herself and people her parents ask her if she self harmed in the shower/tub so what does she do lift up her shorts and proves them wrong because she’s ok now she’s happy in a way she wasn’t before she finally found what she has to live for after years of searching she finally found it…it took her months to get rid of all the toxic people she felt weak for loving him she had so many plans for the future with this boy she went out of her way to be the girl of his dreams until he called her names and said she needed to work out…he made her insecure but she never showed it she was scared for him to see her true body in the light she always had the lights off she fought and fought for him but all he said was he hated her and wanted nothing to do with her…she fell in love with his family his family fell in love with her she had a good connection with his parents and looked up to his step mom more than she looked up to anyone but when she left him she lost her second family she cried for nights about what he was doing with his new girlfriend she just wanted to be enough for him but she never could be he had expectations she didn’t reach which made her feel like shit for not being the girl he promised to love forever and promised he’d never leave but he did he di
