[Intro — whispered, clean guitar]
I learned to smile in languages
I never meant to speak
A thousand doors inside my head
And every one of them is me
[Verse 1]
I wear the daylight like a borrowed name
Polished silver over something feral
I know the shape of every rule
Still find a way to bend them
You can read me if you want
But don’t mistake the words for truth
I’ve spent my life dissecting ghosts
Just to find they looked like you
[Pre-Chorus]
And every answer opens
Another door beneath the floor
I keep descending willingly
To places I’ve ignored
[Chorus]
So let the black halo burn
Let it circle my head
I am everything I buried
Everything I never said
If I disappear tonight
Don’t call it losing control
I’m only tearing down the walls
That were never my home
[Verse 2]
I chase the thought until it breaks
Then chase the pieces further
I turn a question into war
And call the wreckage learning
There’s something underneath my skin
That never learned obedience
It whispers when the room goes still
And laughs at my convenience
[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve been a stranger to myself
A witness in my own disguise
But every shadow that I feared
Was only asking to survive
[Chorus]
So let the black halo burn
Let it circle my head
I am everything I buried
Everything I never said
If I disappear tonight
Don’t call it losing control
I’m only tearing down the walls
That were never my home
[Post-Chorus — harsh vocals]
I’M NOT YOUR MIRROR
I’M NOT YOUR CURE
I’M NOT THE PERSON
YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW
[Bridge — music drops to clean guitar]
Maybe I’m supposed to leave
Without explaining why
Maybe the truth was never meant
To make anybody comfortable
I loved too deeply
I thought too much
I held the world beneath my tongue
And every time I tried to fit
I disappeared a little more
[Build]
So—
Let the old skin fall
Let the old name die
Let every borrowed expectation
Burn behind my eyes
I don’t need permission
To become unknown
[Final Chorus — huge]
Let the black halo burn
Let it circle my head
I am everything I buried
Everything I resurrected
If I disappear tonight
I’ll return as someone new
Not the version that you wanted
Not the shadow you once knew
Let the black halo burn
Let the whole sky turn
I’ve spent my life becoming
Now it’s finally my turn
[Outro — whispered]
I was never lost.
I was becoming.