Lost in the Loop of Love

Walking through shadows of a past I can't forget

Haunted by a love that I can't regret

Thought he was my first, my shining star

A crush that turned into scar

High school days, dreams so bright

But he played me like a game in the night

He set the bar, too high to reach

But he was just a lesson I had to teach

Fell for him hard, but it was in vain

Now I'm stuck in a loop of pain

Am I toxic, am I weak?

Caught in the echoes of what I seek?

Narcissist or just hurt inside?

Lost in trauma I can't hide

He was a bad boy, a storm I chased

Now I wear these scars, can't erase

He’s got his life, his new start

While I fight the ghosts within my heart

Memories linger, wounds that mend

Is this love or just pretend?

My mind's prisoner, my soul's plea

Trying to set this pain free

Am I toxic, am I weak?

Caught in the echoes of what I seek?

Narcissist or just hurt inside?

Lost in trauma I can't hide

Love should lift, but here I fall

In this maze, I can't get out at all

One side loves, the other fights

Drowning in these endless nights

Maybe someday I’ll break free

From these chains holding me

Until then, I’ll just try

To heal and learn to fly