Want this more

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Prompt / Lyrics
I’m breaking, I’m wasted, I’ve never looked worse
Wish I could just fake it but truth always hurts
Running on empty, can’t quiet my mind
I’m poison to love, leaving ruin behind
God, I wish I could want you more
You don’t know how much
But I just can’t watch you burn
When I’m cold to your touch
I wish I could want this more
I wish I could want this at all

(Verse 2)
I know that you see it, the look in my eyes
The ghosts and the flashbacks I fail to disguise
My mind is consumed and my heart isn’t in it
This pains so addictive, I forget I could quit it
I wish I could want this more
You don’t know how much
But I just can’t watch you hurt 
When I’m lost in the rush
I wish I could want this more
I wish I could want this at all

(Pre-Chorus)
You are everything gentle
You are everything true
But I’m trapped in this spiral
That won’t let me choose
If I could be stronger
If I could be clean
Maybe I’d be 
The person you need 

I wish I could want this more
I wish I could want this at all
I wish I could want this more
I wish I could want this at all

Ooooooo ooooooo oooooooo oooooooo
Ooooooo oooooooo ooooooo ooooooo


(Chorus)
You’re more than enough
And loving you was easy
But I make it so rough
I make it so mean 
If I could stop sinking
If I could break free
You’d never have doubted
The best parts of me
I wish I could want this more
I’d do anything for you
But I can’t want this more
I’d give anything, anything
Just to want this more
But I don’t want this at all

(Bridge)
I could be better if I just tried
If I could quit living like all hope has died
I could be better if I found a way
But I lost my chances when you walked away
I wish I had wanted it more
I wish I could have just tried
I wish I had wanted it more
I wish I could have just tried

(Outro)
So don’t say it was you
Don’t carry my shame
I broke what was pure
And I shoulder the blame
I wish I could want this
I wish I could want this at all
God, I wish I could want this
But I don’t want this at all