I’m the villain

I don’t think that I am OK, I can’t do this anyways. I am not strong, not like I thought, I am heartless and I’m lost. I am so tired of the mess, I’m no damsel in distress. I’m the villain. I’m the worst everyone I love gets hurt. So it’s time to say goodbye, close the curtains say good night, I won’t cry. I don’t deserve to, that’s the worst thing I could do. it’s my fault and I am so sorry, but it’s an empty apology. Cuz though I try I can’t escape haunted by the lack of change. I’m insane. You were right. I am giving up the fight. I’ll just hide somewhere safe somewhere far out of your way. I don’t think that I’m OK, I can’t do this anyways. I’m not strong, not like I thought, I am heartless and I’m lost. I am so tired of the mess, I’m no damsel in distress. I am the villain. I am the worst, everyone I love gets hurt.

Singer song writer. Melancholic and filled with longing.