Calories and Catastrophes

[Intro]
[Violin and piano breathe in
Single guitar chord rings]
[Verse 1]
I bought the running shoes
They glare at me by the door
I circle in the kitchen
Counting crumbs on the floor
I stir the quiet coffee
Watch the ripple
Watch it still
Each sip a tiny promise
Each promise bent to will
[Chorus]
I’m trying to be healthy
Trying to stay fit
But the voices in my head keep talking me out of it
One says “you’re a lost cause”
One says “you’ll never change”
I lace up all my good intentions
They come undone again
[Verse 2]
I read the label slowly
Low sugar
High in grace
I picture future versions
I never get to face
There’s laughter from the bedroom
The mirror humming low
“you’re softer than your shadow
And that’s all you’ll ever know”
[Chorus]
I’m trying to be healthy
Trying to stay fit
But the voices in my head keep talking me out of it
One writes down my failures
One frames them like a prize
I track each tiny victory
They cross it off my life
[Bridge]
Who do I believe tonight
The ghost on the couch
Or the glow in the fridge light
Is every little carrot
Just a joke
Just a dare
Or a quiet
Clumsy way
To say I still care
[Chorus]
I’m trying to be healthy
Trying to stay fit
But the voices in my head keep dragging me back again
One whispers “you’re not worth it”
One hums “begin again”
So I pour a glass of water
And let it sit
And let it sit
And maybe that’s a win

Sparse nylon-string guitar and intimate piano, slow tempo. Sad violin intro weaving around a gravel-deep, close-mic’d male vocal. Verses nearly spoken, breathy and close; chorus opens with longer held notes, subtle vocal doubles, and soft string swells. Dynamics stay restrained, focusing on storytelling and small melodic hooks., sad, violin, male vocals, warm, deep