Verse 1)
Unknown names, they glow on my phone in the night
This familiar ache, tears I just can't fight
Muffled sobs in the bathroom, hiding the sound
By morning, it’s like no pain was ever found
Your same loving eyes are looking back at me
And for a moment, it feels like I'm free
I haven't forgotten, just too tired to weep
(Chorus)
My friends all whisper, "Just pull out that thorn!"
I say, "Let it be... it's not as bad as they warn"
They'll never get this sickness in my soul —
Blaming myself to keep your story whole
And I hate this weakness, trembling and true
But you're my old castle... and I'm locked inside with you
(Verse 2)
Last night online, your flirting, a familiar game
Morning comes with your guilt, and my heart takes the blame
"I won't do it again," like words heal every scar
I swallow back the truth of who you are
A constant swing from the darkness to the light
You're the betrayal... then you're my only light
On this narrow ledge between the hurt and grace
I forgive for you what I'd never erase
(Chorus)
My friends all whisper, "Just pull out that thorn!"
I say, "Let it be... it's not as bad as they warn"
They'll never get this sickness in my soul —
Blaming myself to keep your story whole
And I hate this weakness, trembling and true
But you're my old castle... and I'm locked inside with you
(Bridge)
Is this even love, or just the fear?
Of silence, of the void, of no one left here?
What if you're the last one who'll stay?
So I hold on, even this way
That thought cuts deeper than any lie —
To stand alone as this battle goes by
(Final Chorus)
So I live like this: your hurt makes me cry
Your kindness thaws me, under this sky
My friends have grown tired, their voices fade
Just background noise... while yours is replayed
This isn't joy, just a chain I've known
I'm scared I'll leave this prison on my own...
Alive but empty, until I finally see
The key's been in my pocket... it belongs to me
(Outro)
(A clock ticks. A deep, unsteady breath)
A clock ticks. A deep, unsteady breath...