Why

I've always had my wall up high. (Why)???

I never wanted to show what I felt on the inside.

besides it was my ego that had control the situation,, the desperation

that built up for not letting her know was making... my heart start to bleed blood for the love I really felt..

but withheld it for to long,,

until it became to late for me to debet the replacement from

what I have done,, and made her become almost like me,, but see

now that things changed by me telling

what was going through my mind

at that time

why I didn't open up

but now I get looked at like

(A Leopard) that spots never change

she thinks I'm lying,, and full of (shit) which I could amit i would think the same,,

if I was in her shoes

So now (Let Me Explain)

the way I treated her,, with ,,judgmental and mental abuse,, just as bad as being physical dismantling her emotions

making her feel not fit or worth it,

but I knew she could have any man on her side bowing down to her like a queen

i mean the beauty of her is unreal

the type that you never seen

smacking yourself making sure it wasn't a dream

I mean I'm the one that really did this

so I can't be mad,,,

on this thing doing a 180

now I completely understand the feeling of emotionally Fucked up

I never knew this happened

from not opening the Fuck Up

if I felt back then... what I felt now damn i would of made a big thing of it

screaming loader then a lion in his domain

the main thing now is to show her

what I really mean by the words

that where delt to her

like her place in life is way more

valuable to others than she can see and indeed she always deserves better

better than others for the shit that she been through

but she's tough enough

to stand through what anybody else tries to do. REAL TALK....