Too much (Closed Doors)

I prayed that God would show me a sign

Use a gust a wind to show me what is supposed to be mine

He opened the door and as I got closer He shut it….because I don’t live here anymore…

I know I was too much, but I needed you to just show up….for me.

If I’m too much, then go find less- but they will never be me.

Go find someone better

Who will believe all your lies

And you’ll just ignore their cries

Like you did to me

I tried to tell you how I felt

How every night I’d cry myself to sleep

But I didn’t see all the shit I did but I’m saying it here but I know you don’t care

Like sunshine of the spotless mind, if I had a chance to erase you from my mind and all the times we had, I would

Erase you from my life. (Just like you did to me)

Erase you from my mind (just like you did to me)

I wish we could go back

Rewind the times

And only re do the ones

That were meant to be

Why can’t you see what you’ve done to me?!

You shifted the blame

You always complain

But I’m the one left re playing every thing

We were supposed to be each others happily ever after…

But you never even wanted that!

I know I was too much, but I needed you to just show up….for me.

If I’m too much, then go find less- but they will never be me.

Go find someone better

Who will believe all your lies

And you’ll just ignore their cries

Like you did to me

Like sunshine of the spotless mind, if I had a chance to erase you from my mind and all the times we had

I wish we could go back

Rewind the times

And only re do the ones

That were meant to be

Why can’t you see what you’ve done to me?!

It was never me

It was never meant

It was never meant to be

I wish I could erase you from my mind…

But that’s a movie and this is real life…

This is not our happily ever after.

I don’t live here anymore…

I don’t live here anymore!

So sell my shit. Sell our home. Sunshine of the spotless mind. I wish I could erase you from my mind.

I loved you. Did you ever even love me??!! Or did you know this would happen??

I wish we could go back and re do the times that mattered. Where we used to laugh and love each other and not what it ended up being. I just needed you to show up…why couldn’t you show up for me?

(Show up for me)