I Will Never Submit

I used to walk this world alone,

With my heart wrapped in stone,

Said, "I don’t need no saving grace,

I’m my own strength, I’ll run my race."

I'd see the sky and curse the name,

Of a God I thought brought only pain,

Shouting loud, "You don’t own me,

I’ll find my truth, I’ll be free."

But here I am, feeling torn apart,

A silent war within my heart,

I’m screaming at the sky, fighting just to breathe,

Could it be there’s something more than me?

The world I built, it crashed and burned,

Left with lessons I never learned,

Bruised and bleeding, alone in the night,

My shadow's fading in the dying light.

Told myself I didn’t care,

That no one’s listening, nothing’s there,

But in my silence, there’s a whispering,

A voice that knows my suffering.

And here I am, feeling torn apart,

A silent war within my heart,

I’m screaming at the sky, fighting just to breathe,

Could it be there’s something more than me?

I used to curse the name, defy the throne,

Swore that I could make it on my own,

But here I am, broken down to dust,

Struggling to find someone to trust.

I lay my pride down at the door,

A heart so tired, can’t fight no more,

I used to shout, “I’ll never bow,”

But here I am, on my knees now.

Here I am, feeling torn apart,

Letting go, surrendering my heart,

I’m whispering to the sky, fighting just to breathe,

Maybe there’s a grace meant even for me.

So I offer this broken prayer,

In the ruins, I’m finding You there,

Not who I was, but who I’m meant to be,

From darkness, into mercy.