(Low sub rumble, distorted like pressure in ears. Slow, heavy beat.)
[Intro – cracked, tired]
Nobody fuckin’ sees me
They just see what I hold together
(BASS DROP)
[Verse 1]
I’m exhausted in ways sleep don’t fix
Body hurt, mind worse, yeah I feel like shit
Smile glued on my face like a fuckin’ lie
While I’m fallin’ apart just to keep shit “fine”
Everybody want me picture-perfect
But don’t ask what that pressure cost, worth it
I’m carryin’ weight that ain’t even mine
Breakin’ my spine just to save their time
[Pre-Chorus]
I scream so loud inside my chest
But silence the only shit I get
They say “man up,” “you’ll be okay”
I been okay my fuckin’ self to death
(Bass pulls back, tension builds)
[Chorus – HEAVY, ANGRY]
I’m screamin’ quiet, nobody hear me
Voices in my head say “end it,” dare me
I don’t wanna die, I just want peace
But peace don’t come when you’re chained to grief
Let the bass hit hard like my fuckin’ thoughts
Every drop sound like “give up,” stop
I’m alive, but I’m barely breathin’
And nobody sees the pain I’m keepin’
(MONSTER DROP)
[Verse 2]
I dream of my mom still fuckin’ alive
Only time I feel safe is when I close my eyes
And I know she’s gone even in the dream
So I cling to her like “don’t fuckin’ leave”
Wake up empty, chest cave in
Reality slap me again and again
People judge every road I choose
But won’t ask if that road kills me too
[Pre-Chorus 2]
Everybody got advice for my life
Like they won’t disappear when I pay the price
They say “do it this way, you’ll be fine”
But fine ain’t worth losin’ my fuckin’ mind
(Bass rises, distorted vocals underneath)
[Chorus]
I’m screamin’ quiet, nobody listen
They hear my words but miss the mission
I don’t need savin’, I need relief
From carryin’ shit that’s crushin’ me
Let the bass drop low, let it shake my frame
Every hit spell my mother’s name
I’m still here, but I’m drained and weak
And nobody sees the pain in me
(DROP — sub slides, kick punches)
[Bridge – spoken, trembling, no beat]
I don’t wanna end my life…
I just want the noise to shut the fuck up
I just want someone to stop and say
“Would this destroy you if you followed me?”
(Beat slams back in darker)
[Breakdown / Rage Section]
Stop fuckin’ judgin’
Stop fuckin’ pushin’
Stop tellin’ me how to live
When you ain’t the one losin’ sleep
Over choices that cut this deep
(Repeated bass drops)
[Final Chorus – broken, then full power]
I’m screamin’ quiet, throat fucked raw
Carryin’ grief I never got to mourn
I’m tired of bein’ strong for the crowd
I’m tired of hurtin’ just to not freak out
Let the bass hit one last time
Like I’m still here, still tryin’
I’m not dead, I’m just worn to the bone
And I shouldn’t have to bleed alone
(FINAL SUB HIT — long decay)
[Outro – whisper]
If you see me smilin’…
Know it cost me everything.
