Smilies

I keep the TV on at night
Not for the sound, just for the light
‘Cause silence makes it easier to hear it breathe
I used to think it was my head
Just all the things I never said
Now it’s standing where my shadow’s supposed to be

I don’t tell nobody else
They’d say I need a little help
But I know what I saw in my room
Door was locked, I checked twice
Still felt something wasn’t right
Like it moved every time I did

(Pre-Chorus)
And I hate the way it waits for me
Like it’s patient, like it knows me
Every time I feel too lonely
It shows up like it owns me

(Chorus)
Smilies in the dark again
Wide enough to pull me in
Teeth too white, too close, too real
Like it loves the way I feel

Heavy bass inside my chest
Like it’s knocking, won’t let rest
Every breath I take, it stays
Living in the empty space

Smilies when I look away
Still there when I try to pray
I don’t think it’s gonna leave
Think it’s part of me

(Drop – bass hits, distorted vocal chops)
“Don’t you feel better when I’m here?”

(Verse 2)
Now I see it in the day
Just softer, like it fades to gray
But I catch it slipping in reflections
Phone goes black, I see it grin
Right behind my shoulder again
Like it’s learning my expressions

I don’t sleep the same no more
Every creak, every floor
Got me frozen where I stand
And the worst part I can’t shake
Is the feeling when I break
It’s the only time it holds my hand

(Pre-Chorus)
And I know that it’s not right
But it stays through every night
When I’m barely even breathing
It’s the only thing not leaving

(Chorus)
Smilies in the dark again
Wide enough to pull me in
Teeth too white, too close, too real
Like it loves the way I feel

Heavy bass inside my chest
Like it’s knocking, won’t let rest
Every breath I take, it stays
Living in the empty space

Smilies when I look away
Still there when I try to pray
I don’t think it’s gonna leave
Think it’s part of me

(Bridge – stripped, emotional)
If I’m honest… I don’t scream anymore
I just sit there on the floor
And I let it get closer than it should

‘Cause it knows every scar
Every piece of who I are
And it stays when nobody else would

(Build – heartbeat bass rising)
Maybe I’m the one it chose
Maybe I’ll never be alone

(Final Chorus – energetic, chaotic)
Smilies in the dark again
Now I’m reaching out my hand
Teeth too bright, but I don’t run
I don’t fight it like I should

Heavy bass, I feel it sync
With every broken part of me
If I let it all the way in
Will it finally let me be?

Smilies when I close my eyes
Now it’s always by my side
If this is what I’ve become—

…why does it feel like home?

Dark pop, eerie, heavy bass, cinematic, electric synths, deep bass, female