I feel so worthless

I know it's all my fault you left and I feel so worthless without you today. 
I find myself all alone, no longer trusting any man or myself. 
I have already spent almost fourteen years of my life alone and I think I will continue my journey alone because love breaks me too much. 
I want to keep you as a last dear memory of a romance that will not last very long but which was so intense. 
I'm so sad today, I prefer to forget about men unless you come back into my life. 
Yes, this to prove to you my sincerity and also, because my heart can no longer suffer. 
Each story ends badly, between my broken heart because I am asked for money or because I am not forgiven for not being able to take my time to accept a marriage proposal. 
I want to forget love in all of this but I know very well that I care a lot about you Marc. 
I needed to think and now it's done, I fully accept your marriage proposal but I know it's already ruined, it's already too late for you. 
However, it took me time to accept leaving my family and my friends and my country but I don't know if you will understand that. 
Yes, I want to officially become your wife today but I'm really afraid that you won't want me anymore. 
So I am left with this heavy weight of nostalgia on my heart and with all my sadness that follows. 
I love you Marc, can you believe me again? 
I really regret my first reaction but I have never been married in my entire life and I feel like I needed to think deeply about this. 
Is that a reason to push me away if you still really love me too? 
Because I will never tolerate a divorce because I believe in God too. 
I love you, I love you, I love you very much Marc. 
I hope you will believe me and that you will also believe in our true love to come back to me and ask for my hand again. 
I love you so much that I can't live far from you either. 

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