I didn’t mean to feel this fast
Didn’t plan on looking back
Just two souls talking after dark
Finding comfort in the cracks
You say I feel like home to you
But you don’t stay the night
You hold me like you’re scared to lose me
But you won’t choose the fight
You say I’m the best thing
That happened this year
But you whisper the future
Like it’s something you fear
You want me close, but not too close
You want my heart, but not the oath
You pull me in, then pull away
Like loving me costs more than staying
I’m standing here, halfway through
Between wanting and choosing you
And I don’t know if love should feel
Like something real you can’t make real
You watch the clock when I leave
Ask if I’m home, where I go
You say trust is everything
But still you need to know
You don’t want to share my name
But won’t let me be free
You want the parts that calm your storms
But not the whole of me
I give you laughter, skin and truth
You give me maybes dressed as proof
You want me close, but not too close
You want my heart, but not the oath
You say “mine” when lights are low
But hide me when the world might know
I’m standing here, loving you
While you’re deciding what you’ll do
And I don’t know if love should stay
If it’s afraid to choose a way
I’m not asking for forever tonight
I’m not begging you to change your life
I just need to know when you say my name
You’re not running from the flame
‘Cause I can be patient, I can be kind
But I won’t disappear inside
Someone else’s doubt, someone else’s fear
While calling it love just to keep you near
I feel you when you touch my face
I feel you when you hold me still
But silence speaks when day breaks
And wanting isn’t choosing still
I want a love that walks in light
Not one that only lives at night
Not one that shakes when truth appears
Or trades a future for its fears
If you want me, say it whole
If you love me, take the road
‘Cause I won’t beg to be believed
I won’t shrink to be kept
So if you find your courage soon
I’ll meet you where the brave ones do
But if you stay between the lines
I’ll choose myself and leave behind
The almosts, maybes, almost you
I deserve a love that chooses too