Screaming Inside

I walk this line, each week I share,

My stories heavy, but do you even care?

With papers in hand, my heart's on my sleeve,

I need you to know, I need you to believe.

Each time we meet, it's the same old song,

You ask for my plans like I’m doing wrong.

I feel like a puppet on strings pulled so tight,

Whispers in shadows keep me up at night.

See, I’m haunted by my past, you don’t understand,

This isn’t just about a budget or a plan.

When will you see? Do you even care?

While I fight these demons, you're just unaware.

Hey, can’t you see, I’m screaming inside?

Fighting for my life, there's nowhere to hide.

Every check-in feels like I'm bound by chains,

You’ve got the power, yet I feel the pain.

Oh, I’m crying for help, in the silence of night,

While systems are broken, and hope feels so slight.

Just take a moment, look deep in my eyes,

Behind this façade, the real fear lies.

My mother-in-law's shadow looms over my plans,

Her whispers remind me that I’m not in command.

Every figure and number, a reminder of strife,

But can you not see, I’m fighting for life?

I wish for a moment you’d take off your mask,

And see what I’m facing; just one simple task.

Can’t you just listen, put judgement aside?

Be the chance I need, be my guide.

Hey, can’t you see, I’m screaming inside?

Fighting for my life, there's nowhere to hide.

Every check-in feels like I'm bound by chains,

You’ve got the power, yet I feel the pain.

So here I stand, waiting for you to feel,

This heaviness I carry; this fear that’s so real.

If only you’d listen, just open your heart,

Then maybe, just maybe, we can start to restart.