Holding on

We made plans in coffee cups

Sketched our names in crooked hearts

You said

"This is it

We’re us"

Now I’m staring at the dark

Your toothbrush still by the sink

But your eyes feel miles away

I joke

You don’t even blink

I keep begging you to stay

I’m holdin’ on for dear life

Knuckles white around your ghost

This ain’t the love that we dreamed

It’s the one that hurts the most

You are my heart

My only home

But I feel you slippin’ slow

I’m so afraid of lettin’ go of you

Afraid you’ll love someone I don’t know

I rewind our kitchen fights

Frozen plates and frozen smiles

You said

"Baby

We’ll be fine"

I believed it for a while

Now your phone lights up at night

And you turn the screen away

Tell me

Who is in your life

That you can’t let see my face?

I’m holdin’ on for dear life

Knuckles white around your ghost

This ain’t the love that we dreamed

It’s the one that hurts the most

You are my heart

My only home

But I feel you slippin’ slow

I’m so afraid of lettin’ go of you

Afraid you’ll love someone I don’t know

If I loosen my grip

Do you fall

Or do you fly? (oh)

If I finally set you free

Do I save us

Or just die inside?

Tell me

Did we ever stand a chance

Or did we crack from the start?

’Cause losing you to anyone

Feels like losing my own heart

I’m holdin’ on for dear life

Knuckles white around your ghost

This ain’t the love that we dreamed

It’s the one that hurts the most

You are my heart

My only home

But I feel you slippin’ slow

I’m so afraid of lettin’ go of you

Afraid you’ll love someone I don’t know

You are my heart

You are my hurt

I’m holdin’ on

For all it’s worth