Loved and Hated

[Verse 1]
Used to sleep in my hoodie
Phone off, curtains shut
Told myself I ain’t trippin
Still I stayed in a rut
One text changed my morning
One fight changed my night
Funny how in a second
You can lose or find your light
They cheer when you winning
Disappear when you slip
Same hand that gave you dap
Wrote your name on a list
I heard “bro, I got you”
Then I watched ’em all switch
Guess love and all that anger
Share the same cold fist
[Chorus]
You’re loved and hated
On the same damn day
They’ll crown you, break you
In the same old way
But don’t you ever, ever
Let your own heart fade
’Cause even if they curse your name
You still worth that change
You’re loved and hated
In a world this small
They’ll pray you rise up
Then hope you fall
So don’t forget yourself
When they bend your name
’Cause even when you lose it all
You can flip that pain
[Verse 2]
I seen halos on demons
Seen scars on saints
Seen hugs hide agendas
Seen smiles turn fake
One call from my mother
“Boy, I’m proud you here”
I hung up in the hallway
Wiped one secret tear
’Cause I remember that bathroom
When I stared too long
When the mirror said “failure”
And I believed it was strong
Now I’m talking to the kid
Who feel broke like that
You ain’t crazy, you just heavy
You ain’t only what you lack
[Chorus]
You’re loved and hated
On the same damn day
They’ll crown you, break you
In the same old way
But don’t you ever, ever
Let your own heart fade
’Cause even if they curse your name
You still worth that change
You’re loved and hated
In a world this small
They’ll pray you rise up
Then hope you fall
So don’t forget yourself
When they bend your name
’Cause even when you lose it all
You can flip that pain (yeah)

rap, Moody melodic rap over sparse piano and deep, shifting bass; male vocals. Verses sit in an intimate, confessional pocket with close-mic delivery, hook opens wider with layered chant-style doubles and airy pads. Subtle trap hats flicker in and out as the energy swells from quiet reflection to a heavy, cathartic chorus, then drops back down on the last line like a distant echo., sad