I've been thinking

I used to fly

But now I'm drowning

I used to laugh

But now I'm crying

I used to sing

But now I'm screaming

I used to dance

But now I'm falling

I don't know why

My life got upside down

I was a topper

But now I'm a failure

I was obedient

But now I'm stubborn

I was calm

But now I'm hot tempered

I was logical

But now I'm emotional

I was innocent

But now I'm a pervert

I don't know when

I'll be my own self

I'm depressed

I wanna escape from the harsh reality

That's why i sleep 16 hours

But when I don't sleep,

I try to find pleasure by using Android

I know my decision was the worst

I hate myself

I'm physically and psychologically ill

Those addictions made me the worst

I'm all wasted

Pause, Stop

Rewind and resume

Dear,you don't hate yourself

You just hate your bad habits

Dear,you aren't bad

It's just your age thing

Dear,you aren't lazy

You are just haven't really been serious

Please wake up honey

You can do it

You got talent

You got support

You just have the lackings of

Hard work and consistency

You can do it.

It's okay.

It's okay.

It's okay to be a failure

But it isn't okay to be depressed about it.

You got plenty of opportunities

Don't forget your Lord

You are nothing without Him

Regain your connection with your Lord

You'll find back everything.