Home by Taddel94_ - Zona

Home by Taddel94_ - Zona

Lyrics

(Verse 1)

Every voice is louder than my own,

Telling me who I should’ve been by now.

I follow signs that lead to nowhere,

Carry shame like it belongs here.

I do my best just to survive the day,

But every win still feels like I’m late.

I try to smile, try to belong,

But something in me knows it’s wrong.

(Pre-Chorus)

I swear I tried every road they gave me,

Every version they wanted me to be.

If this is living, why do I feel

Like I’m disappearing gradually?

(Chorus)

I don’t wanna run, I don’t wanna escape,

I just wanna find somewhere I can stay.

Where my name doesn’t sound like blame,

Where breathing doesn’t feel like pain.

(Ohohohohoho)

I’m not asking for heaven or gold,

I just wanna stop feeling so alone.

I’ve done everything they said was right—

So why am I still not happy tonight?

(Verse 2)

Every failure feels like it’s mine,

Like I missed some invisible sign.

They say “try harder,” “be more strong,”

Like I haven’t been trying all along.

I watch my life from the outside in,

Clapping for everyone else who wins.

I keep asking, “When’s my turn?”

But all I do is crash and burn.

(Pre-Chorus 2)

I’m carrying dreams that don’t feel like mine,

Deadlines, doubts, and borrowed time.

If this is all I’m ever meant to be,

Why does my heart keep begging me to leave?

(Chorus)

I don’t wanna run, I don’t wanna escape,

I just wanna find somewhere I can stay.

Where my name doesn’t sound like blame,

Where breathing doesn’t feel like pain.

(Ohohohohoho)

I’m not asking for heaven or gold,

I just wanna stop feeling so alone.

I’ve done everything they said was right—

So why am I still not happy tonight?

(Ohohohohoho)

Why am I still not happy tonight?

Mhmmm

Why am I still not happy tonight?

(Bridge)

If home is a feeling, why can’t I find it?

If joy is real, why am I denied it?

I’m so tired of fixing what I didn’t break,

So tired of smiling through every mistake.

Mhmmmmm

Tell me—

Is there a place where I’m not too much?

Where I don’t have to earn your love?

Where I can fall and not be ashamed?

Where staying doesn’t feel like failing?

(Ohohohohohoho)

(Ohohohohohoho)

Ohohohohohohohohooooooooooooooooooooo

(Chorus)

I don’t wanna run, I don’t wanna escape,

I just wanna find somewhere I can stay.

Where my name doesn’t sound like blame,

Where breathing doesn’t feel like pain.

(Ohohohohoho)

I’m not asking for heaven or gold,

I just wanna stop feeling so alone.

I’ve done everything they said was right—

So why am I still not happy tonight?

(Ohohohohoho)

I don’t wanna run, I don’t wanna be saved,

I just wanna wake up and feel okay.

Somewhere I’m allowed to stay,

Where happiness doesn’t slip away.

(Ohohohohoho)

I’m not asking for a perfect life,

I just wanna sleep through the night.

I’ve lost so much just trying to be strong—

Tell me where I belong.

Mhmmmmm

If there’s a place where I can breathe,

Where I don’t feel wrong for being me—

I don’t need forever, I don’t need control,

I just wanna feel at home.