Broken me

I’m a sensitive man.  I can’t control how my heart feels, beats, or desires.  My soul calls for you.  It’s begging for you to return to me.  There is no doubt that we are connected through space and time.  The universe has no boundaries on where our souls can travel.   When our souls reunite, time limits will be broken and eternity absorbs us.  
Alone has become my new best friend.  She fills my heart with pain and rips into my sanity.  Her memory claws at my mind and scrapes away my purpose for living.  Pushing me further and further into darkness.  Tumbling through space and screaming for salvation.  Drifting in and out of reality without anyone to catch me.  

Dreams, visions, and a glimpse of you keep my heart beating and blood pumping through my veins.  Fantasies of you waking me with a gentle kiss torment me.  Denying my love and affection only builds rage in my body and Hurting those I love in the wake.  

Someone once asked me if I Believed in heaven or hell.  I use to believe in a lot of things like love and true happiness.  Now all I believe in is pain, loneliness, and craving a simple hug.  Heaven you ask?  Ever marry the woman of your dreams but never get to touch her?  Do you know what it feels like to beg your love for a hug?  Sleep alone in a basement so you don’t crave your lover like a lust thirsty vampire? to be denied when you try to force your fangs in?  Running back to your coffin because the sun is rising.  
I wish they would ask that question again.  Heaven or Hell?  I’ve come to believe that Hell is just reality and Heaven is for suckers who can’t handle it. 

Alone has become my new best friend.  She fills my heart with pain and rips into my sanity.  Her memory claws at my mind and scrapes away my purpose for living.  Pushing me further and further into darkness.  Tumbling through space and screaming for salvation… For salvation 

Acoustic, male