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(Verse 1)

You made me think we could’ve been forever.

The passion was fire, You became my desire.

I kept asking for things but you wouldn’t deliver.

Just pushed me away, I kept leaving and coming back like a fever.

Now I’m sad because the hope is gone.

Wanted you to come back but I think you’re done.

You pushed me away, I just wanted to stay.

If I’d only knew how it would end, I never would’ve let you come in.

I was unpredictable, maybe it drew you away.

Because you like consistency every day.

I’m a lot to handle and overthink everything.

I just miss you holding me, feeling at peace,

But you fooled me with those rings.

You were Hansel with those breadcrumbs.

I was a stranger in the woods I thought we were fun.

You wouldn’t open up to me or introduce me to anyone in your life.

Just felt like a twisting ache in my heart and it was your knife.

(Chorus)

I thought I was your girl. I thought you saw me long-term.

But I was just a placeholder not something you wanted to hold firm.

I guess it’s something I just had to learn.

(Verse 2)

Just wanted to be all in your life, but I was hidden.

And now I just feel achy and bed ridden.

How did I let myself become your secret lover?

You told me I was beautiful, now its over.

I’ll always be the girl on the sidelines.

Telling myself I’m fine.

I just wanted all of you, because you made me feel special for a minute.

The blindfold was over my eyes, I was fully in it.

Everyone told me to leave, but I believed we would last.

But you kept me at arms length because of your past.

When I was crying said you don’t do crazy.

I let my guard down maybe?

Once you told me that you didn’t think you believed in love, its just a feeling and feelings go away,

I know love can feel like a drug but its home and it stays.

Remember how you never wanted to take pictures with me? it always made me feel unseen.

I wanted more, my feelings got ignored and I didn’t mean anything.

(Bridge)

Right now it feels like I can’t move on, but I know I’m strong.

Because I’ve been through hell and back before

I can do it again and more.

I was unpredictable, maybe, but I thought I was yours.

Thought we were something steady, now I’m standing at closed doors.

I could’ve loved you daily, gave you everything and more.

But another man already broke me before.

(Chorus)

I thought I was your girl. I thought you saw me long-term.

But I was just a placeholder not something you wanted to hold firm.

I guess it’s something I just had to learn.