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Lyrics
[Intro]
Used to call it “just a phase”
Now it’s decades in a haze
Same ceiling
Same ashtray
Same ghost in my face (yeah)
[Verse 1]
First hit, thought I found relief
Tiny flame, big hole in my teeth
Mama’s eyes red from prayin’ all week
While I pawned my past for another cheap peak
Used to have plans, had grades, had hope
Then I learned how to lace my dope
High school pics in a shoebox, man
I can’t even look, that kid had a plan
Slept on floors, woke up in yards
Bruised-up knuckles and stolen cards
Friends turned shadows, names on stone
I kept dialing numbers to a dead man’s phone
[Chorus]
I watched my life just waste away
One more hit, then I’d change “one day”
Now every year feels the same old day
I been dying slow in my own doorway
I burned my bridges, killed my shine
Traded my family for one more line
Hit rock bottom, then dug my grave
I watched my whole damn life just waste away
[Verse 2]
Sister said “you ain’t my brother”
Couldn’t trust me near my own mother
Stole her ring for a weekend run
She cried, said “look what my boy’s become”
Needle on the sink, blood in the drain
Told myself “last time” while I shook in the rain
Dealer knew my story better than my dad
Knew the exact kind of day when I’d call back mad
Saw my reflection in a busted screen
Eyes so hollow they swallowed the scene
I was there, but I wasn’t awake
Just a heartbeat built of breaks and shakes
[Chorus]
I watched my life just waste away
One more hit, then I’d change “one day”
Now every year feels the same old day
I been dying slow in my own doorway
I burned my bridges, killed my shine
Traded my family for one more line
Hit rock bottom, then dug my grave
I watched my whole damn life just waste away
[Bridge]
How many chances did I smoke?
How many “I’m sorry”s came out broke? (yeah)
How many nights did I scream inside
While I laughed out loud just to try and hide?
[Verse 3]
Now I’m countin’ days, white chip in my hand
Shaky little step on some busted-up land
Still feel cravings crawl under my skin
Still hear that voice say “come back again”
But I seen caskets close too fast
Seen good kids fade, I don’t want that past
If I got breath, I got one more try
If I got tears, I got room to cry
So if you hear this, and you where I been
In a burned-out room with a poisoned grin
Know a wasted life can still be saved
But you gotta walk out of your own damn grave (yeah)
[Chorus]
I watched my life just waste away
One more hit, then I’d change “one day”
Now every year feels the same old day
I been dying slow in my own doorway
I lost my blessings, lost my time
But I’m tryna win back what’s still mine
If I wake tomorrow, that’s my grace
I ain’t lettin’ one more day just go to waste
Details
GeneratedFeb 9, 2026
Duration3:32
LanguageEnglish
Style
rap, Moody boom-bap with filtered piano loop, deep sub bass, and tight, dry drums. Male vocals, close-mic’d and confessional; verses in a low, gritty pocket that slowly build intensity. Chorus widens with airy vocal doubles and a simple, mournful synth pad. Final hook strips back to piano and voice for a raw, exposed ending., hip hop, emotional
Credits
Prompt by
Painkiller
PainkillerModelAria v5
Prompt
A very emotional rap song about how I've seen my life waste away from being a drug addict most of my life, rap, hip hop, male
