Still Standing (Pain Inside)

I been moving quiet, I don’t speak on what I feel

Ever since my dad died, I ain’t been the same for real

Lost one of the realest, yeah it broke me deep inside

Now I fake a smile daily, got this pain I gotta hide

Depression hit heavy, I been stuck inside my mind

Tryna find a way out but I’m running out of time

Scared to even open up, scared to even cry

Feel like if I show it, they gon’ judge me or just slide

I been hurting, I ain’t say a word

Feel invisible like I ain’t heard

I’m still standing, but I’m barely here

Fighting all this pain, drowning in my fears

They see me smiling, they don’t see the tears

I been feeling lost for so many years

Still standing, but I’m worn down

Carrying the weight, I might just drown

I give my all, they don’t give back

I’m surrounded, still alone like that

Lost my ex, felt like I lost it all again

Now it’s just me, I don’t even call no friends

I’m there for everybody when they need a hand

But when I need somebody, ain’t nobody there

Sick of taking care of people every day

When I’m breaking down, who gon’ make me okay?

Feel like I don’t belong, like I shouldn’t be here

Like if I disappeared, would they even care?

I been questioning life, like what’s the point?

Every day feel heavy, every breath feel joint

Mind going places I don’t wanna go

But deep down inside… I don’t wanna let go

I’m still standing, but I’m barely here

Fighting all this pain, drowning in my fears

They see me smiling, they don’t see the tears

I been feeling lost for so many years

If I fall, would they notice me?

If I call, would they come for me?

I don’t know… but I’m still here

Yeah… I’m still here.