A Letter To Myself

Dear me, it's about time you start using your pretty little mind for the better

I was always the outcast in high school

Vaped and drank to appear cool

But i never would've thought that i would make it this far

It's not that there's something wrong

I just always felt like I didn't belong

Cause for so many years i was hard on myself

Trapped myself inside my burning hell

Maybe it was the alcohol i consumed

If so, what the fuck did i do?

here's a letter to myself im hurting deep inside

i remember the first time i attempted suicide

im so fucking lost inside this world

im not pretty like most girls

my pores are opened, body short, but hey im trying that's for sure

my mind is constantly spinning all around

im only thinking straight when im going down

i lack common sense because of what my mother spewed

maybe if i had some sense then i wouldn't be screwed

i believed for the longest no guys liked me because of my weight

well shit im finally losing it and hot damn do i feel great

i always felt like a burden cause i didn't have a car

but fuck im hurting and im revealing all my scars

here's a letter to myself im hurting deep inside

i remember the first time i attempted suicide

im so fucking lost inside this world

im not pretty like most girls

my pores are opened, body short, but hey im trying that's for sure

i know one day ill be alright

get to live my best life

ill be an actress, a wife and even a mom

and ill finally be calm

im only steps away from making myself okay (from making myself okay)

here's a letter to myself im hurting deep inside

i remember the first time i attempted suicide

im so fucking lost inside this world

im not pretty like most girls

my pores are opened, body short, but hey im trying that's for sure