On The Wait List

I signed up in blood and ink

Front row to my own fate

They tagged a number on my name

Told me

"Kid

You just gotta wait"

Clock’s chewing on my nerves

Second hand sharp like teeth

Every day the same dead screen

Spinning circles

Selling me dreams

I’m on the wait list

Face pressed up to the glass

All of these gatekeepers

Praying I’ll just collapse

I’m on the wait list

Hear me scratch at the door

If you won’t let me in

I’ll kick down the whole damn floor (hey!)

They feed hope in quiet tones

"Soon

" like a dirty word

Emails like empty bones

Promises I never heard

But I’ve been sharpening my "no"

Into one long battle-cry

You can shove me down that line

I’ll still climb into the sky

I’m on the wait list

Face pressed up to the glass

All of these gatekeepers

Praying I’ll just collapse

I’m on the wait list

Hear me scratch at the door

If you won’t let me in

I’ll kick down the whole damn floor

So spin that wheel

Stack the deck against my name

I was built for

Back-of-the-line rage

Turn my place in the queue

To a throne made of steel

You can stall what I get

You can’t stall what I feel (oh yeah)

I’m on the wait list

Tattooed under my skin

Every "later" that I swallowed

Now it’s gasoline within

I’m on the wait list

Hear my boots on the wall

If you won’t call my name

I’ll be the one who calls the fall