[Verse 1 – Slow, moody guitar with organ chords in the background]
Woke up in a storm I never saw coming,
Brain’s a bullet train—can’t stop it from running.
Thoughts like thunder, heart on spin,
Smiling in mirrors I don’t fit in.
I try to pray but my words fall flat,
Staring at the ceiling—“God, where You at?”
Can’t breathe in crowds, can’t speak my name,
And this world keeps moving like I’m not in frame.
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[Pre-Chorus – Gospel chords rise behind the distortion]
Is there mercy for the messy?
Is there grace for the loud?
Is there a place for the broken
Who can’t blend into the crowd?
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[Chorus – Full-band eruption with choir backing vocals]
I’m barely holding on, but I’m still believing,
Fighting these demons, bleeding and breathing.
I don’t have answers, I don’t have peace,
But I’m begging You, God—won’t You anchor me?
‘Cause this mind won’t rest, and this heart don’t heal,
But I know You’re the only thing that’s real.
So I’ll scream, I’ll cry, I’ll fall, I’ll crawl—
But I won’t stop calling if You’re hearing it all.
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[Verse 2 – Gritty and real]
I got questions that shake my faith,
Like, why do I feel so out of place?
Every plan I make just falls apart,
And people keep saying, “Just follow your heart.”
But what if my heart is lost at sea,
Tangled in trauma and ADHD?
I try to listen, try to obey—
But the silence just echoes louder each day.
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[Pre-Chorus – Whispered then rising]
Is there room in Your arms
For a mind like mine?
One that can’t sit still
But is desperate for a sign?
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[Chorus – Louder, stronger, rawer]
I’m barely holding on, but I’m still believing,
Even when my chest feels like it’s caving.
I don’t need perfect, don’t need to be free—
Just need to know that You still see me.
I’m torn and tired, I fall too fast,
But I know You’ve loved worse than that.
So I’ll scream, I’ll shake, I’ll break, I’ll crawl—
But I won’t stop calling if You’re catching it all.
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[Bridge – Gospel choir builds behind her solo voice]
You said come to Me, all who are weary—
Well, I’m here, I’m bruised, and I’m barely standing.
But if You are light, if You are peace,
Then break through this chaos and comfort me.
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[Final Chorus – Full vocal power, drums & gospel swell]
I’m barely holding on, but I’m still believing,
Tears in my throat, but I’m still singing.
No I don’t have joy, I don’t have calm,
But I still got hope—so I’ll sing this psalm.
You’re the only truth that quiets the noise,
The still small voice in a world that destroys.
So I’ll scream, I’ll praise, I’ll rise, I’ll fall—
But I won’t stop calling if You’re worth it all.
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[Outro – Fading with a gospel choir hum + soft electric guitar]
I’m barely holding on…
But I’m still believing…
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