Please Stop Counting On Me

(Intro - spoken word)
“ Why the fuck do I do this to myself again?!  I just fuck everything up! Why is this so hard?! Fuck!! 

(Verse 1)
Packed the bags, told myself it’s the last time
Threw the pills down the sink, drew a hard line
Three days clean, I can feel my heart beat
Looking in the mirror, standing on my own two feet
But the air feels thin and the walls are closing in
And a whisper says "where have you been?"
It’s my old friend, I can feel you pulling me in
I can’t resist the pressure that  I feel within

(Chorus)
And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim in a frozen stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.
Ohhh I can’t let go! Ohhh can’t let go

(Verse 2)
Can’t count the fingers on my own hand
Texts from you that I don’t understand
Said I’d meet you there, and I’d be okay
But I’m too fucked up to even show up late
I’m fighting with demons whispering lies
Rewriting my brain like it’s plagiarized
Filled with little white lines, all through my mind 
It’s diseased.
Please stop counting on me

(Chorus)
And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim in a frozen stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.
Ohhh I can’t let go! (Can’t let go)

(Bridge)
They say one day at a time, I lasted an hour
I can’t fight the urge and I lost my power
I close my eyes, and I’m back at the start
Everything inside of me is falling apart
I need to breathe, I must be freed 
But her nails are dug so deep inside me

(Breakdown)
Ohhh And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim in a frozen stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

(Outro)
But I don't know how to let go.
Just one more time...
But I don't know how to let go.
One more time...
Ohhhh one more time!!
I can’t let go!!!
Trying hard, but I don't know how 
to let go.

post-hardcore, hard rock, acoustic, raw, trapped feeling, addiction struggles, high emotion