(Verse 1)
I used to know my name and where I stood,
Now I’m second-guessing if my memories are good.
I checked the dates, I recorded every word,
But you tell me that’s not what I heard.
You say I’m "too sensitive" I’m "losing my grip,"
While I watch my reality slip.
(Pre-Chorus)
I’m walking on eggshells just to keep the peace,
Waiting for the anxiety and shouting to cease.
I apologize for things I know I didn’t do,
Just to stay in the light that’s shining from you.
(Chorus)
You create the madness and call it my fault,
Why can’t you talk to me like a grown ass adult
I’m chasing a version of truth that you hide,
While you hollow me out from the inside.
It’s mental erasure, leaving me confused,
there’s nothing left that you havent abused.
(Verse 2)
I stop making decisions cuz I’m "always wrong,"
I forgot what it felt like to ever be strong.
You isolated me until you’re the only one left,
Then turn your back cuz you’re all I have left
Every witness I have you’ve dismissed as a liar,
Burning my truth on your righteous fire.
Oh who’s the liar?! Who’s the liar?!
(Bridge)
Is it fog or is it smoke? I can’t even tell.
I’m trapped in this version of your hell.
My confidence is gone, eroded to dust,
By the constant betrayal of all I trust.
(Breakdown)
I used to check with you to see if I was right,
Searching for truth in the middle of the fight.
But the fog is lifting, the smoke is clear,
I’m finding the person you made me fear.
I am not the problem.
I am not the lie.
I am the truth you couldn’t buy.
(Chorus)
You create the madness and call it my fault,
Why can’t you talk to me like a grown ass adult
I’m chasing a version of truth that you hide,
While you hollow me out from the inside.
It’s mental erasure, leaving me confused,
there’s nothing left that you havent abused.
(Outro)
I found the pieces, but the scars go deep,
By promises you broke and secrets you keep.
I am not why.
I am not the lie.
I’m learning to trust what I know to be true,
And the first step is walking away from you.
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