By My Side

Knuckles white on the steering wheel

Ice on the road

And my chest

Every scar in the rearview mirror

Says I’m only as good as my regrets

Screaming prayers through broken teeth

Smoke in my lungs

In my eyes

Thought I’d choke on all this anger

Till I heard a whisper cut the night

Jesus is by my side

When the world swings first and I just hide

When I’m swinging back at the sky

And my faith feels frayed

Paper-thin

Bone-dry

I fall

I crawl

I break inside

Still

Jesus is by my side

Stared down the edge of the bottle

Like it knew my middle name

Every lie said “I got you”

Every truth said “walk away”

I was one more step from ending

Everything I couldn’t fix

Then a calm hit hard like thunder

Like a nail-scarred hand on my wrist

Jesus is by my side

When the dark says "stay" and hope flatlines

When my shame screams louder than my pride

And the mirror shows a stranger in my eyes

I fall

I crawl

I break inside

Still

Jesus is by my side

If I run to the grave

You run faster (hey!)

If I drown in my rage

You dive after

I bleed in the chains I made

You’re the key

You’re the fracture

Tear my castle of ash apart

Brand Your name on this stone-cold heart

Jesus is by my side

Through the crash

Through the crush

Through the fire

When I’m buried under all my lies

You pull me out

Breathing

Still alive

I fall

I crawl

I break inside

But Jesus is by my side

Yeah

Jesus is by my side