Halfway man

I dimmed my glow to fit his shade

Said “it’s okay” while my hands still shook

Laughing it off as I fell apart

Calling it love when it felt like luck

But I remember dancing in my bedroom

Singing to the mirror just for fun

I was already someone

Someone

Before he ever called me “the one”

I won’t abandon myself

I was whole before him

I need honesty and consistency

Not a halfway man

My heart

My plans

My boundaries

My quiet

My peace

My sanity

I won’t abandon myself

(I matter, I matter to me)

I used to beg for tiny scraps

“Sorry

Been busy

” then weeks of blur

Checking my phone like it held the sky

Forgetting I was brighter than his lies

Now I’m turning all the lights back on

Talking to my friends I left on read

Learning how to trust my own reflection

Not the stories living in his head

I won’t abandon myself

I was whole before him

I need honesty and consistency

Not a halfway man

My heart

My plans

My boundaries

My quiet

My peace

My sanity

I won’t abandon myself

(I matter, I matter to me)

If you can’t show up

Don’t say you will

If you can’t be kind

Just leave me still

I choose my truth

I choose my space

I choose my name over your face (hey)

I won’t abandon myself

I was whole before him

I need honesty and consistency

Not a halfway man

My feelings

My time

My energy

My calm

My body

My dignity

I won’t abandon myself

(I matter, I matter to me)

I won’t abandon myself

I was whole before him

I need honesty and consistency

Not a halfway man