[Verse]
It's that quiet, heavy lonelyness
That takes a piece each time
You pull away like
the tide that brought me hope
And It's not about the distance
It's your abscence in my core
Each time I miss you more
But each time I need you less
[Pre-chorus]
[Intensity build-up]
You closed all the doors and windows
I tried to reach you through
And now you blame me for learning
to live my life without you
[Chorus]
[Intense powerful]
I missed you first!
I'm not cold. I'm just rehearsed
From being hopefull, to expecting the worst
Yeah I missed you first
Now you want me to need you
Like I did back then
But love doesn't bloom
In the cracks of 'almost'...again
[Verse]
It's the pain of feeling more alone
When you're right next to me
I've laid the pavement for our love,
Alone
You will always have a reason
To be in your own way
Weave your hurt into a net of blame
Yet you never catch yourself
[Bridge]
[Intensity peak]
I had to get used to the empty space
On your side of the bed
Chasing the love we once had
Like a dream fading, slipping through fingers
The more you try to remember...!!!
[Final chorus]
[Intense powerful]
I missed you first!
I'm not cold. I'm just rehearsed
From being hopefull, to expecting the worst
Yeah I missed you first
Now you want me to need you
Like I did back then
But love doesn't bloom
In the cracks of 'almost'...again