CLS

I still remember that day. I still can’t decide if it was the best or the worst. After all this time, I hear your name and curse. So many years I’ve wasted. Wasted them all for you. If only I’d known on that fateful day, all the things you’d put me though. I love you. I’ve always loved you. This much can be said. Even though this much is true, I’d soon rather be dead. You push me further, then draw me close. Why must me play this game? You either want me or you don’t, to you it’s all the same. I gave you love. You gave me lies. Because of this I despise….you. I’m done with this. All of it. Most of all, you. My days and nights of endless mourning I wish that they’d be though. One day you’ll understand the strife you caused, and by then I’m sure too late. Truth be told, if I had it my way, you’d suffer the same fate. To wonder why, is this a lie? Is my love received so true? Not one good thing on God’s green earth, I wouldn’t have done for you. I’ve grown since then, my mind is stronger. My heart and soul are healing. This so called searching that you’re doing, far from any meaning. Round and round the wheel keeps turning and you it’s very slave. Change for you means less than nothing, and I hope you rue the day. I release you now, to your devises. Your plans and evil schemes. No more shall I allow your voice, to ever haunt my dreams. I’ll always love you, this is fact, but I’m done chasing. Your own demons from which you’re hiding. Those are the ones you should be facing. Goodbye my love, I wish you well. I relinquish myself for your hell. Until we meet again. 

metal, sleep token