[Verse 1]
Blank TV glow on my face
Three days
Same shirt
Same place
Phone full of names I ghosted
Family photos turned to ghosts
Yeah
[Pre-Chorus]
Got a map on the wall
But the roads all blur
Every door in my head
Leads back to the hurt
Still I claw
Still I crawl
Through the weight and the dirt
[Chorus]
I’m coming back through the dark
With these cracked
Bleeding hands
Every scar
Every mark
Is a trail in the sand
If you’re still there
Hold on
Leave a light in the hall
I’m not gone
I’m not gone
I’m just learning to crawl
[Verse 2]
Bathroom mirror
Eyes like holes
Razor words carved in my bones
Can’t explain why I pushed you away
When you were the shelter from my own rain
[Pre-Chorus]
Hear your laugh in the room
But it’s all in my head
Every “I’m fine
I’m cool”
Is a line made of lead
I’m so tired of the truth
Only living in texts I don’t send
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
I’ve been drowning in the silence
Begging for a sound
Built a prison out of pride
Now I’m tearing it down
If I break
If I shake
Will you still be around?
[spoken
Close-mic]
I don’t wanna disappear in plain sight
I just wanna feel your arms tonight
[crescendo]
So I scream at the ceiling till my voice gives out
Every demon in my chest getting dragged right out
If it hurts
Let it hurt
Let it burn
Let it bleed
’Cause your names in the ashes is all that I need
[Chorus]
[Outro]
[whispered vocals]
One step
Then another
Back to you
Back to us
[full voice]
I’m not gone
I’m not gone
I’m just fighting my way back to us