Out of control.

Spending your new Life trying to avoid life or losing your life to a Streets lifestyle. Living in a hole. Everything is out of control. Spiraled fastly spinning to fast to see.

Wishing hoping preying begging your god isn't listening. Ignoring your Crying. Yelling. Going crazy.

Dizzy sick feelings. Freezing always looking all around yourself keeping tabs wishing you could be sleeping but if you fall asleep they will come take everything. Even if it's really nothing. It's something you have. Helpful to your everyday. Everything you have. A few things you held on to. Something to remind you who you are. Keeping you going.

Wishing hoping preying begging your god isn't listening. Ignoring your Crying. Yelling. Going crazy.

Not understanding how this became your reality. Writing suicide notes atleast 3 times a week. Feeling all alone. No body cares seemingly. Look at me sitting in my hole so hungry can't control stealing food just candy trying not to fall out. Fear overcoming everything.

Wishing hoping preying begging your god isn't listening. Ignoring your Crying. Yelling. Going crazy.

How am I here. Heat stroke one month and freezing 2 or 3 later -13 outside is no reality anybody should experience living outside spiraling spinning so fast you can't even see. Dizzy sick feelings. Sad reality.

Wishing hoping preying begging your god isn't listening. Ignoring your Crying. Yelling. Going crazy.

Surprising yourself surviving these things overcoming it's amazing. Everyone thought you wouldn't make it. But no one reached out to pull you out. Not a friend worried. Family sadly you didn't understand at first you didn't have 1 anymore. Left for dead Hungry devastated robbed for everything thirsty and alone. But overcame it man.

Wishing hoping preying begging your god isn't listening. Ignoring your Crying. Yelling. Going crazy.

Surprising to everybody. They all thought you were going to die nope not me but they all died to me mentally. After only watching me falling apart not even trying to help me. Un believabley crazy to me.

i would have never. Not even an enemy. Thay would be living with me get them on their feet so they can start climbing. It's all anybody really needs in that situation with all that pressure. A little love encouraging words. Something keeping you going. Someone having faith in you. Letting you know your worth it. dusting off time to take a breath. And begin rebuilding .

Wishing hoping preying begging your god isn't listening. Ignoring your Crying. Yelling. Going crazy.