I woke up from a dream that you and I were in. Just to turn and to be alone. My heart still aches for you. This cold dark void, this life without you has no feeling. I crave the taste of maple syrup and sunshine. I have shown you my love is everywhere and without you . Has no purpose in this word . I miss your smile , your touch , your taste. I am a mess without you and the lie I live has no meaning. I had dreams once filled with you and us walking through fields of poppies. Looking at Mount Aragats . Now that my dream is shattered, my hope is gone, my life has no meaning . You touched my heart in ways I never knew was possible. without that light the darkness has taken me and now my soul is damned I belong to my dark angel . My once caring and bright loving life is gone. I was corny and hopeful now I no longer live or have no voice . You forgot me like I don't matter I loved you from the top of your head which I kissed. To the bottom of your feet. I knew that the last thought I would have in this world . Was going to be your name on my lips. I just didn't see it was going to be today . I am angry I thought we were connected as one. For when you were in pain . I came to you . Now my pain has consumed me . You didn't come and save me I called out to you . I pray for you I asked God to take away your pain. To heal your relationship with your daughter. To give me your guilt you sin and free you. I loved you that much. For you to leave me and not save me for your guilt and your pain. Is too much too bare. Despair has me in his cold embrace. I am now consumed with no light , no love, only pain . Darkness has taken me the last of my tears have fallen. I close my eyes and try to remember your smile . The look in your eyes the desire you once had for me. I walk out into the woods and drop to my knees. To look up into the cold rainy sky. My key in my hand despair's hands on my shoulders. To welcome me home forever more.