How do i ?

Our minds are made from dust

From a drop of water and that of love

The gods drink of the wine that flows in our flesh , our tears salt their tasteless food

So how do i cope with this life when i dont believe in the next.

And how do i talk when i cant sing

How do you expect me to smile when I cant eat

How do you think i see if you believe i can't cry, How do i run when i cant walk

So how do i cope with this life that's all a lie

Do you expect me to magically sing as i break down and cry each day that you are gone

Or write a book out of a gush of wind i know not his origin

As you put my hopes down and lift your's up then still expect me to perform my best

Im nothing like you , im not a god nor am i perfect( straight to the core )

I was told about your kind

I was warned from where i crawled

I was told that you speak no more than bullets and guns

And that you prey on the innocent ones

Ive tried to be good an fit in like you want me to

But all you've done is ruin my life

You've made a villain out of me

With the insults that you prepared from your own mouths

How a fool i was to ever think you were different

Even when i was told more than once

I was a fool to ever call you my own

A people filled with nothing but greed

How a fool you were to let me in

A villain with potentiel to destroy your fields

Now worship me in the ground my people once dug

As a thank you i give you my word

I will let you live if you feed me your blood

I was told afterall im the worst person there's ever been

I cry out not because im lonely

Nor because im hurt from the endless longing

Longing for a love or a deadly romancing

Longing for a life or an endless happiness

Plenty and merrier , joyful and jollier

Ill make the worst choices out of my right mind

and sense of reasoning

Because i wish to hurt myself without ever wanting to

Just to know what it feels and see if i could conseal

my emptiness into the scars i give myself

Its not out of my right mind but it is out of my live conscious

Its just me testing my barriers and jumping my limits

Its also me creating my limits and surpressing myself

Because i fear though i know what i seek i cant findeth

Not in my flawed natured nor my human mind

This is how i express my inner child

How i bring to light my teenagehood

Crying for acceptance , si juste personne peut me comprendre

Mais alas , je reste seul en cette vide que je crée

Car je cherche ça que je peux pas trouvé

Je me blessé juste pour me guérir

Après la guerre d'amour qui résulte en la mort

Scars and blisters filled my face

Flames arose from a hell I hadnt thought of yet

The pain silenced but the death did not

A stub a cry and then im gone

After crushing my soul like a withered rose

Expect me to arise like an ancient throne

But what if im not strong like all the rest

What if im not , what you expect me to be

How do i cope up , you're too perfect for me